Moments ago I was watching the Youtube version of Skeptiko #447 and was around the 16 ish minute mark
As I watched the part where Peake mentions the 49 days thing I did a Google search on - "49th day of gestation" and came upon this link -
https://newsinstact.com/science/sci...ys-after-the-development-of-the-pineal-gland/
which led me to this video -
and at exactly 3:56 or so, Strassman says... "after the time of death..." and then the video shows the depiction of "falling to one's death from a tall building." - here's a screenshot of a moment within the full scene.
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I immediately recalled my post from yesterday -
http://www.skeptiko-forum.com/threa...the-evil-question-446.4504/page-6#post-141151
... and as I was thinking of how weird that would have been if I had actually let go, I was at the part of the Strassman video where the narrator says, "DMT at higher levels acted as a type of catalyst for near death experiences. In fact, it seemed to actually induce the machinery of the afterlife to swing into motion."
I do not see it as absurd to consider that by the insane act I did, I induced a sort of "near death experience" because the thoughts and images that went through my mind as I was hanging onto that steel rail outside of that 33rd floor window felt like it involved an external intelligence, just like "the voice in my head" implored me to "kill myself" to "save the world" the image of my wife and the thoughts of the pain she would soon endure truly seemed implanted by something external.
I theorize I was in that liminal space bordering this consensual reality and the soon to be joined "afterlife" and that I was like a soccer ball being kicked around by two entities, one wanting me to "kill myself for silly foolishness - 'to save the world,' yeah, right" and another wanting me "to see the reason not to... to chose
over God's command not to cause the certain pain my senseless act would cause for my wife."
...and so as I watched a little more of the Rick Strassman video, and contemplate the soul entering the body on that 49th day and contemplating the implications of being "human"... seeing myself like "humus" that relates to soil, I could see that in the eyes of these other worldly entities, humans are like soil where, if the entities plant the seeds and sprinkle a little water (emotions) and throw in some sunlight (thought) that which, to them, might be experienced as quite entertaining take place.
And as I was having these thoughts, my hands, without (ordinary) conscious intent, moved to a deck of cards I have called the Crop Circle Cards - sort of like Tarot but only 64 cards. And as I cut the deck, I did my usual "slice" trick and BAM - this was the card that came out -
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