Haustlöng – a Poem about Soul Retrieval

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tarantulanebula, This is from my own experience and mine alone. But I hope you can still get something out of this.
1) Moles may simply be a coincidence or it may be something to it. Either way ... you may be reading too much into it.
2) it doesn't matter how one reacts to one another (whether is it positive or negative) in regards to whether or not one has a strong connection or not. But this is subjective.

From my experience ... it is just a knowing, a feeling like I had made it home when I am with my ex (I had recently visited her in appropriate manner - and my wife was with me and met her as well). Again ... it is a very long story! But at the same time I really can't stand her right now because of her life decisions... however, I have (a now) platonic and an unconditional love for her that I cannot explain. But there was an over 20 year gap where I had let her go and had no contact with her. However, I had recently made contact because of some unexplained experiences that led to it.

But perhaps you should take a break as well and let God (fate) handle it for awhile. My two cents. :)
 
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tarantulanebula, This is from my own experience and mine alone. But I hope you can still get something out of this.
1) Moles may simply be a coincidence or it may be something to it. Either way ... you may be reading too much into it.
2) it doesn't matter how one reacts to one another (whether is it positive or negative) in regards to whether or not one has a strong connection or not. But this is subjective.

From my experience ... it is just a knowing, a feeling like I had made it home when I am with my ex (I had recently visited her in appropriate manner - and my wife was with me and met her as well). Again ... it is a very long story! But at the same time I really can't stand her right now because of her life decisions... however, I have (a now) platonic and an unconditional love for her that I cannot explain. But there was an over 20 year gap where I had let her go and had no contact with her. However, I had recently made contact because of some unexplained experiences that led to it.

But perhaps you should take a break as well and let God (fate) handle it for awhile. My two cents. :)
Dear Morning Fog, thank you for your sharing. I don't fully understand your feeling but trust me, I understand how you felt and how you feel, at least partly.

You said you can't stand your ex because of her life decisions. I am feeling similar, because I have a feeling that the woman I like has chosen to love a man who won't give all the good future to her. But listening to your story, you had 20 year gap with someone you feel home with, then I know it won't be strange that I should leave this woman to go her own way for a long time without my meddling.

She loves her husband very much and I can feel how sweet she is when she communicates with her husband through phone call, but, I can also sense that her husband is not planning a good future life for her.

I will say goodbye to this woman, when she won't need me anymore. But for the following several days, I still need to be in her vicinity, escort her for a time, then I will need to manage a job change and not see her often, perhaps not see at all for many many years.

I won't complain about her attitude towards me or her life decisions. I won't feel guilty that I will not be at her side when I sense that her future would possibly be difficult, just like I sense something bad would possibly happen if I didn't give those help to her, sometimes even without her knowing.

I really need the answer, but perhaps NOW is not the proper time. I will seek for the answer in the rest of my life. Best wishes to you!
 
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tarantulanebula, This is from my own experience and mine alone. But I hope you can still get something out of this.
1) Moles may simply be a coincidence or it may be something to it. Either way ... you may be reading too much into it.
2) it doesn't matter how one reacts to one another (whether is it positive or negative) in regards to whether or not one has a strong connection or not. But this is subjective.

From my experience ... it is just a knowing, a feeling like I had made it home when I am with my ex (I had recently visited her in appropriate manner - and my wife was with me and met her as well). Again ... it is a very long story! But at the same time I really can't stand her right now because of her life decisions... however, I have (a now) platonic and an unconditional love for her that I cannot explain. But there was an over 20 year gap where I had let her go and had no contact with her. However, I had recently made contact because of some unexplained experiences that led to it.

But perhaps you should take a break as well and let God (fate) handle it for awhile. My two cents. :)
Moles may simply be a coincidence, I agree.

But, I have never felt a woman turns out to be so special to me, and makes me yearn for taking her as one of my family, a wife.

She is not super pretty and she has a common appearance, meaning you can find hundreds women just resemble her on a Chinese street, but I can sense her uniqueness and special atmosphere.

Based on all the above, recently I made close look at her (when I helped her when she felt nauseous caused by bad odor in the air, or she felt almost fainted then I put up the folding couch for her) and realized both of us have a prominent mole just under the eye.

If fate's purpose is just to give an unavailable woman for me to suffer the extreme jealousy, why it arranged one mole under the eye for each of us? I haven't seen this coincidence happened between someone else and me, before meeting her.

So weird.
 
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