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I think your overanalyzing you need to take a big step back, your personal experiences are leaking in to your judgements Making you a tad bit paranoidNo there's just more than I can write in a single forum post in single sitting and some that I'm not yet comfortable sharing.
I find this slightly ironic given you started this thread being scared of the possibiity of TK being used to harm, made an Xmen analogy which I think is rather fitting, and then went all giddy when you apparently witnessed it for yourself and decided to start learning. It was, to be honest, an awkward and jarring about face. To me, someone being scared of something they don't have and then excited and prideful when they do is a massive red flag. And then when I asked if you'd become one of the same people you'd be scared of you said no because you would only use it for "good," whatever that means, totally missing the point of my question. I let it be but then you kinda went on an egotistical attack of Silence and Illusion to the point of saying you were chosen by fate to witness PSI. You may have been joking but it's hard to trust that given some of the rest of what you said. Its the type of things that makes me pretty wary, especially given you've seemingly avoided telling the story of how things changed given muliple people have asked and as far as I've seen there's been no answer.
According to Jefferey Mishlove in the video posted on the first page, Ted Owen also wanted to be the good guy, wanted to be the one saving the village from volcanoes and stuff. But he was also so petty that when someone ouldn't put his name in a newspaper for ending a drought he decided to just bring the drought back, oh and send a hurricane too, because that's what all those people who had nothing to do with the newspaper deserved after all, death. This demonstrated that Ted Owens couldn't've cared less about being good, he just wanted everyone to tell him he's good, he wanted his name in lights and to be a household name. Because when someone didn't "respect" him, he'd get them killed. His quest to be a "good guy" may be responsible for a few thousand deaths given what Dr. Mishelove claims he did. His attitude, and quite frankly yours, reminds me of half of the spirits that used to attack me, and it doesn't bode well for anyone if it's true.
Yesterday my girlfriend and I were asked to sit on the board for an Advanced Class interview at our Kung Fu studio. Prospective students must undergo a panel interview before they are allowed to progress to that level because we're not interested in teaching psychopaths or hotshot brats who think they're tough techniques that are designed to maim or kill. specifically because of how you appeared to be going after Illusion and Silence and because of the about face you made duribng the course of this thread I decided to ask the student what their definition of morality was. They gave me more or less a standard canned answer about being nice to people and trreating others how you would like to be treated. So I followed up by asking wha their definition of immorality was, how did they define good and evil. They gave me more or less the satndard canned answer again. then, because they used the phrase "treat others the way you'd like to be treated" I decided to ask a third question. I asked them that, since one part of their definition of evil was harming others, do they see any conflict with that and self defense. Given that you have to harm your attacker in order to defend yourself? They didn't quite say yes or no but they did say that that's part of being controlled and not doing things like throwing out that extra hit even if the perrson deserves it or if it would feel really good. So another more or less canned response. Not the best answer but it was probnably as good as I was gonna get from someone I'm putting on the spot so I voted to let them in.
If they had said something along the lines of "Well no, they're attacking me and I'm only defending myself from their attack" I would've voted no, full stop. I will not help teach killing techniques to someone with such a glaring lack of self awareness. I never fully vote yes because I have no way of really knowing that persons true character all I ever really do is vote "above 50%" and wait and see what happens to their attitude when they start realizing just how easy it can be to kill or mutilate a room full of people, on your own, with your bare hands.
People say that power corrupts but I don't really believe that. I think power removes the corruption that reality forces on people. All the little lies everyone tells each other in order to be "civil". Always trying not to hurt someone's feelings beause that's the "polite" thing to do. All these things people do that they tell themselves is them being a "good" person, when in reality it's only because they're trying to get the better end of a deal whether they want to admit it or not. It's no wonder that the now infamous Milgram Experiements found that nearly everyone will kill another random person provided someon with a white lab coat tell them to do it despite all their claims and beliefs of being such good, nonviolent people who would never do such an immoral thing no matter what.
When somone gains power or is distanced from the consequences of not having power, like the internet, those masks come off and the person becomes more themselves. The more power they think they have, the more themselves they become. Some of the people who got into the Advanced class in the past started off as some of the schools best students, then they get to blue belt and think "hey I've got 3 years of experience, I can totally take on the Grand Master who's been training for 45!" and then get a black eye or bruised jaw as a result. Apparently, long before I ever joined, there were a couple cases of random people walking into the studio off of the street making some ridiculous "waaaaaaaaaa~!" noise and an equall ridiculous pose while seriously attempting to challenge people to fights to which they would end up knocked out, on the step outside while the instructor called the police to come pick them up.
I used to try training a couple people about magic and combat via astral projection for a little bit back when inducing shared projections was easy for me. One of them I refuse to ever talk to again. He was a hotshot who'd copy things he'd seen in video games and animes, down to the whole screaming out the name of the attack part, and thought he was a complete badass for it. He was a kid in his mid teens at the time and maybe that had something to do with it, but another guy I was working with was too and is to this day one of the most mature, intelligent people I've ever met. The more he learned about how to sense energy and project it the worse he got. He developed a massive hate boner for me after awhile which I believe was triggered by what I'm very sure was s shared dream between me, my girlfriend, and him where he and a few others attacked both of us. During it he was going on and on and on about how awesome and powerful he was until I ended up beating him. Then he got incredibly depressed and defeatist before the dream eventually ended.
The next day my girlfriend and I were talking about what happened in chat while he was there. I was certain teh guy that attacked us was him or at least somehow related because the energy felt identical. We remembered there was a lot of strange terms and jargon the guy was using that we didn't recognize or quite remember how to say properly... but he could. He filled in all the blanks for us and we asked him how he knew all of this. Apparently it was all from yet another anime, one he was particularly obsessed with at the time. Although he never outright admitted to being the guy in the dream my girlfriend and I are pretty much certain it was him and he was just too embarrassed to admit it given what happened. The attacker had his energy signature and he was the only one who knew what all the random anime jargon was. Plus he already seemed jealous or hatreful or whatever of me in particular. Which seemed to get worse than it already was afterwards. At the time I wasn't sure that it was him and couldn't prove it anyways so I continued trying to work with him. Eventually after a few more cases of him being a total jackass that thought he knew everything, both in confirmed projections and in the chat, I just cut him off.
Everyone I've ever seen, including myself, who ever believed they're going to use their power for "good" ends up one of two ways. They either end up like Ted Owen who would try to interrupt naval excercises, get people to commit suicide, or crash planes if people didn't take him seriously, until the only person who still thinks they're a "good guy" is them and maybe a few other equally narcissistic friends. Or they grow a brain and realize that good and evil is just a matter of perspective after a few mistakes throw their hypocrisy back in their face.
I should probably edit this more but it's like 1am and I need to sleep.